Prismoria

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Jay Star Jacob Jackson Samuel Broteez Elliot Evans
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Jay Star

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Trigger Warnings

All. If you have any triggers,
do not look at this character.

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Contents

I. Teaser

II. Basic info

III. Health and Abilities

IV. Appearance

V. Personality

VI. Self Perception

VII. Relations

VIII. Roleplay Info

“I kill everything I touch...”

Teaser

Teaser

I am in a room

There is no light

Only darkness

What is in ー the room ー is unknown

All that is known

Is that it's all I remember.

This dark, dark room

There is some shuffling about every once in a while ー

From what, I do not know

Some murmurs, some quarls

A gust of wind chilling the foul air

A

Sheet.

No, that's not the word.

A

Curtain

Set aglow, something shining behind it.

A white curtain

Seemingly glowing.

Quite peculiar.

The light

Faded behind the sheet of white

Spills into the room

Like water down a mountain.

Now it is clear

This was never a room.

This is a cage.

The curtains ー they hang over steel bars

A window

With no pane, no protection

To keep the cold winter air out.

The gray floor

The gray walls

The concrete box I'm in

Is covered with blood

The only splash of color

In this little box of mine.

The door

Much too thick than needed

With a thousand locks to keep me in

And no key in sight

The darkness was better than this

It was better

When I could not see to see

It was better

When there was no unbreakable door

What is this light?

Why must it come to me?

Go bother someone else

Go be a fairy somewhere else

I like this little box of mine

I don't want things to change.

This box is all I've ever known

I need more sheets

To cover up that little light

Tapping on my broken window.

I spot a corner covered in red

Calling out to me.

If I can't keep my room the same

This corner will have to do.

This foul-smelling corner

Will be the only thing

I can call mine.

I can not extinguish the light

So I'll just have to block it out

But the light just gets brighter

My heart beats faster

Why won't it go away?

It's been so long

I've been sitting here

Alone

For three long years

Trying to block out the light

What even is a year?

It's all just one big muddle of blackness.

Maybe I should give that light a chance.

It has never done any harm

It has never left me.

…

It has never left me

Alone

Maybe I could ask it

“Hey

Little light of mine

Why are you still here?

Why

Have you never left me

Alone?”

Maybe it knows

How to break through those locks

Sealing the door shut.

So I gather my courage ー

Push myself to my feet.

With light tapping on the concrete floor

I walk over to the curtains,

Taking the sheets in my hands.

Soft, harmless sheets

Blocking out the light.

I fling them open,

The ray of light rushing in

Like an old friend

Wrapping around me in a hug.

It's so blindingly bright

So beautifully white and blue.

The light is behind the steel bar window,

Flickering about with such energy.

My heart yearns to join it ー

That freely dancing sunshine

But I am on the other side

Peering out through cold

Bloodstained bars.

Once my eyes adjust

The view behind the light

Can finally be seen

A grassy field with towering trees

Flowers swaying in the wind.

It felt like winter inside my little box

But out there it's summer

When life flourishes

When it thrives

While I'm stuck in here

Unable to spread my wings and fly

What have I been doing all these years?

Why was I so scared?

This light never threatened me

It only wanted to lead

Show me a better life

So that I may flourish too.

I cling onto the metal bars

Tugging with all my might

But no matter how hard I try

The steel bars remain standing strong

It's not until I realize the little light was not a light

But something so much more

That blinding brightness

Can shine in me

And shine

I will try.

This explosion of white light inside

Puts a hand on my shoulder

Offering me the strength

The strength to break through my cage.

The room around me crumbles

Nothing more than specks of dust

The warm summer air engulfs me

The sweet smell of life surrounding

I can finally be at rest

Living with the little light inside me

Thriving and learning how to fly

But that paradise swiftly falls away

As the hands of darkness grasp my legs

And pull me back away

I dig at the luscious green grass, the dirt

Struggling to maintain my freedom

The little light grabs my wrists to help

To save me

But two strong forces pulling opposite ways

End up tearing me apart

The room full of darkness rebuilding itself

Blood splattering on the walls and floor as I'm torn

All the light I feared in the beginning

Fades away as my eyes grow heavy

And darkness consumes my being.

There is nothing now.

Those curtains left shut once again.

…

I am in a room

There is no light

Only darkness

What is in ー the room ー is unknown

All that is known

Is that it's all I remember.

“Speak only when spoken to. Do what you're told to do.
Feel what you're told to feel. Don't fight back, don't resist.
Be the perfect test subject you are.”

Basic Info

Birth Name

Alexander Sebastian Green

Current Name

Jay Star

First Name

Jay

Meaning

Victory, a bird, healer

Significance

When he met Jacob, Jacob introduced himself then asked for Jays name. Jay wasn't used to talking much at the time, so he started to repeat Jacob's name very slowly, and Jacob cut him off halfway. He's been Jay ever since

Last Name

Star

Significance

In trying to come up with a last name, Jay tried to make it something that sounded cool and related to him. He's an outdoors type of guy, so one night, staring up at the stars, he decided he wanted Star to be his last name. Flashy last name, I know. He was a kid-

Nicknames

Dolphin

Reason

He sounds like a dolphin when he laughs. He has a very high-pitched laugh

Jay Bird

Reason

This is just a nickname his ex used to call him. There was no real reason behind it

Biological Gender

Male

Preferred Gender

Male

Pronouns

He / him / his

Sexual Orientation

Asexual

Romantic Orientation

Pan-romantic

Age

20 - 24 depending on the rp

Birthday

Jay does not know. I do, but he doesn't know, so there's no reason to state it

Zodiac Sign

Same answer as before

Occupation

Actor or None

Where they live

Prismoria

Languages

English

“He was my sunshine. There's no sunshine anymore. Only...
Darkness. Endless darkness.”

Health and Abilities

Physical Illnesses

... That is unknown

Mental Illnesses

This is unknown as well

Triggers

Basically everything

Mutation / Power

He does not have a mutation that gives him a power, his powers come from his necklace. And he can use all types of powers

How long have they had it

Since he was 3

What are the limitations (If it's a power)

He can't use it for too long, otherwise the pendant starts to burn him and make him relive trauma in his head. He hates using magic for this reason

“Dad didn't do anything. Oh, it was his body, but it wasn't him.”

Appearance

Height

6'8"

203.2 cm

Weight

190 lbs.

86.2 kg

Skin color

Pale ivory

Hair color

Yellow blonde

Hair texture

Soft like a kittens fur

Hair style

Curly and unbrushed

Eye color(s)

Electric blue

Piercings

None

Scars

Many. Most of them are on his back. I can't describe them without revealing some of his backstory though

Tattoos

None

Birthmark

None

Freckles

No

Accent / Voice

Very low-pitched and deep, except for when he laughs. When he laughs, his voice goes up like, ten full octaves in pitch

Other

He is extremely warm. Like, he's practically a personal heater. So, he gives the best hugs, because he's just so warm.

“Trees are better. Beds steal innocence.”

Personality

Closest Stereotype

Tsundere

Overall Description

Jay is very closed off and distant at first, but it's just because he's scared. He believes that if he let's people in, they will end up getting hurt because that's what happened to someone who used to be his boyfriend. He doesn't really understand social interactions nor can he read people at all, so he can only pick up on things like "hm, they seem sad" if it's obvious and in his face. Once he opens up to someone, he is like a giant teddy bear. He will protect them at all costs and all he'll want to do is cuddle with them. Even if they're just a friend. He doesn't see cuddles as a romantic thing.

Likes

Trees and nature. He lives in a tree. He loves being able to be in the freedom of the outdoors, where he can be sure that he will not be trapped because there will always be somewhere he can run.

Physical affection of any kind. I often joke that he is hug-deprived because he is. Jacob showed him what physical affection was when he was about 14. He never knew what it was like before that. And ever since, he became very affectionate towards anyone close to him. It's how he demonstrates his appreciation. It's not a romantic thing (though it can be)

Kittens. He just finds them really cute :3

Dislikes

Buildings without many windows and doors. This goes back to the outdoors thing, he doesn't like feeling trapped. If there aren't a lot of windows and doors, there aren't a lot of escape routes and he starts to feel trapped and helpless

People who interrupt him. Sometimes it takes a little while for him to be able to respond, social interactions are hard for him. It's even harder when he's not given enough time to properly comprehend what was said and respond to the best of his abilities

Anything related to magic and anything related to killing. Both of those remind him of the lab and make him paranoid or guilty. It's difficult for him to discuss it.

Traits

Affectionate and warm-hearted. He may not be able to use his words to explain himself very well, but he will always be able to use affection to demonstrate how much he cares about someone. And he will do anything to help that person be happy and content.

Self-sacrificing. That is a positive thing, but he can be a bit too self-sacrifing to the point where it's self-destructive

Strange. He is very strange. Sometimes he will speak in riddles. He doesn't seem to have human needs. He refuses to even touch a bed. The man is very strange and unusual.

He is a man of extremes. He sees things as black and white. You're either good or bad, no in between. He either doesn't trust you at all, or trusts you with all his heart. His voice is super deep, his laugh is super high pitched. Everything about him is either 100% or 0%

Naïve. He was locked up for three fourths of his life almost, he doesn't understand a lot of things, so a lot of things are new to him.

Hobbies

Drawing

Greatest joy in life

Cuddles. It always makes him happy

Fears

Letting someone in. He's terrified that if he let's someone get close to him again, they'll end up dying like his boyfriend. He doesn't know if he'd even be able to handle that

Being happy. If he starts being happy again, it'll be harder to survive in the lab. If he doesn't feel anything, he has nothing to lose. But if he has happiness and hope, he has everything to lose.

Losing control to the pendant. His necklace is always trying to force him to do what it wants, and sometimes it's even able to take full control over him for a short period of time. He's scared that one day it will have full control

Love Language(s)

Physical Touch: People who communicate their appreciation through this language, when they consent to it, feel appreciated when they are hugged, kissed, or cuddled. They value the feeling of warmth and comfort that comes with physical touch.

Acts of Service: This love language is for people who believe that actions speak louder than words. Unlike those who prefer to hear how much they're cared for, people on this list like to be shown how they're appreciated. Doing the smaller and bigger chores to make their lives easier or more comfortable is highly cherished by these people.

Biggest Regret

Stabbing his boyfriend

Biggest Accomplishment

Learning to love

Darkest Secret

His entire backstory

“I am not cute, I am as manly as you can get!”

Self-Perception

How they feel about themselves

Indifferent. Jacob showed him that there are some good things about himself, but he knows that there are some really bad things about himself. If he's in a good mood, he's indifferent about himself. If he's in a bad mood, he thinks he's a monster.

How they would describe themselves

Murderer

What they think is their best trait

His loyalty

What they think is their worst trait

His loyalty, it's a double-edged sword

How they think other perceive them

Tough guy

What they would like to change about themselves

Get rid of the pendant

“It's not that I hate myself, I don't. I just know what I am and what I have to do.
For everyone else's sake.”

Relations

Biological Mother

Unknown

Biological Father

Unknown

Adoptive Father 1

Nico

Status

Alive

Adoptive Father 2

Elliot Evans

Status

Alive

Ex-Lover

Jacob Jackson

Status

Deceased

“This room is mocking you.”

Roleplay Info

Availability

Open

Genres

Fantasy

Angst

Sci-Fi

Romance

Mystery?

Adventure

Other

Jay is an rp-killer. He is so closed off and distant at the start that people often get stuck and can't make any progress with him. He acts like a brick wall sometimes, and it makes the rp hit a brick wall. If your character isn't persistent enough, gives up easily, or gets scared off easily, it's not going to work out with Jay. You will hit a brick wall. Jay is my hardest character to start an rp with.

If you do manage to get past the beginning stages with him, the rp can be very interesting. Some of my best rps started with him.

What is the pendant?

How was it created?

One day, Jay saw a blue tiger when he was only 3, and he decided to follow it into the woods. He was a toddler and didn't realize how dangerous that was. The tiger led him to a portal, and Jay tried to go through it. Nothing happened. So he tried again. And again, and again.

Soon enough, it was too much and the portal suddenly flew up into the air, spinning rapidly. It exploded into a bunch of pieces, almost crushing Jay as the piece fell back to the ground but the tiger pushed him out of the way. Not wanting to lose it forever, the tiger pushed the pieces together and pulled off some magic that condensed all the broken pieces into a small crystal on a coppery chain. Then it gave the necklace to Jay for safe-keeping.

Why was it there?

That tiger from before came from another dimension, a dimension full of prophets and shapeshifters. She was only a kid, and she messed with the timeline. That was a huge crime, and the higher ups sentenced her to be banished to a different dimension. That's where the portal came from. But it was a one way portal, so she couldn't go back because she was banned. So going through it did nothing. She thought maybe another creature could go through and convince the higher ups to give her another chance, that's why she got Jay. She just wanted to go back home and see her family.

What does it do?

Well, it gave Jay powers. He was able to use the magic that was held within the crystal and harness its energy.

What went wrong?

One day, the scientists went too far. In trying to find out how to make magic, they pushed Jay and the pendant too far. The pendant turned from it's red color to a golden-ish glow, which seeped into his heart, infecting it. The heart infected his blood, which then went throughout his entire body. Once it got to his brain, the pendant was able to talk to Jay. It gained a mind of its own. Because of the awful situation Jay was in, the pendant learned to be scared of everyone and to view everyone and everything as a threat. So, it always wants Jay to kill and eliminate all threats. It is still just a rock, it has no empathy or emotions.

Jay however does not want to kill people, he doesn't like listening to the pendant. So the pendant has to use other methods to make him do what it tells him. It yells at him, burns him, makes him relive memories he wants to forget over and over until he gives in. It uses him like he's nothing but a vessel.

What do the colors mean?

Blue - It's in its normal state and isn't using magic.

Red - It's overheated. Either it's using too much energy or it's mad at Jay and thus overheats, burning him.

Gold - Jay has pushed it past the danger phase and it is now trying to take total control over him. Jay's eyes will turn red at this point too, but they go back to normal after he sleeps.

What powers can he use?

All.

Isn't that OP?

No, because he can only use magic for a very short amount of time, and the harder the magic, the more it takes out of him. The pendant overheats very fast, so he doesn't like using magic. It also gives the pendant more control over him.

How does the particle affect him?

It doesn't. The pendant is able to maintain his heath and sanity. It doesn't let the particle enter his body because that threatens to take away some of the power it holds over him.

How much of Jay's health does it regulate? And why?

If Jay dies, it dies, so it will not let Jay die. He doesn't need to eat, he doesn't need to sleep, he can be stabbed, he can be shot, he can jump off a building, he will not die. The pendant heals him just enough to stay alive. Though, it will not let any wound heal, it keeps those from getting better. Then when it needs them, it can open up all those wounds to hurt Jay and make him listen. It has all the power over Jay. If he didn't have the pendant, he would be dead.