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Contents
I. Teaser
II. Basic info
III. Health and Abilities
IV. Appearance
V. Personality
VI. Self Perception
VII. Relations
VIII. Roleplay Info
“I kill everything I touch...”
Teaser
Teaser
I am in a room
There is no light
Only darkness
What is in ー the room ー is unknown
All that is known
Is that it's all I remember.
This dark, dark room
There is some shuffling about every once in a while ー
From what, I do not know
Some murmurs, some quarls
A gust of wind chilling the foul air
A
Sheet.
No, that's not the word.
A
Curtain
Set aglow, something shining behind it.
A white curtain
Seemingly glowing.
Quite peculiar.
The light
Faded behind the sheet of white
Spills into the room
Like water down a mountain.
Now it is clear
This was never a room.
This is a cage.
The curtains ー they hang over steel bars
A window
With no pane, no protection
To keep the cold winter air out.
The gray floor
The gray walls
The concrete box I'm in
Is covered with blood
The only splash of color
In this little box of mine.
The door
Much too thick than needed
With a thousand locks to keep me in
And no key in sight
The darkness was better than this
It was better
When I could not see to see
It was better
When there was no unbreakable door
What is this light?
Why must it come to me?
Go bother someone else
Go be a fairy somewhere else
I like this little box of mine
I don't want things to change.
This box is all I've ever known
I need more sheets
To cover up that little light
Tapping on my broken window.
I spot a corner covered in red
Calling out to me.
If I can't keep my room the same
This corner will have to do.
This foul-smelling corner
Will be the only thing
I can call mine.
I can not extinguish the light
So I'll just have to block it out
But the light just gets brighter
My heart beats faster
Why won't it go away?
It's been so long
I've been sitting here
Alone
For three long years
Trying to block out the light
What even is a year?
It's all just one big muddle of blackness.
Maybe I should give that light a chance.
It has never done any harm
It has never left me.
…
It has never left me
Alone
Maybe I could ask it
“Hey
Little light of mine
Why are you still here?
Why
Have you never left me
Alone?”
Maybe it knows
How to break through those locks
Sealing the door shut.
So I gather my courage ー
Push myself to my feet.
With light tapping on the concrete floor
I walk over to the curtains,
Taking the sheets in my hands.
Soft, harmless sheets
Blocking out the light.
I fling them open,
The ray of light rushing in
Like an old friend
Wrapping around me in a hug.
It's so blindingly bright
So beautifully white and blue.
The light is behind the steel bar window,
Flickering about with such energy.
My heart yearns to join it ー
That freely dancing sunshine
But I am on the other side
Peering out through cold
Bloodstained bars.
Once my eyes adjust
The view behind the light
Can finally be seen
A grassy field with towering trees
Flowers swaying in the wind.
It felt like winter inside my little box
But out there it's summer
When life flourishes
When it thrives
While I'm stuck in here
Unable to spread my wings and fly
What have I been doing all these years?
Why was I so scared?
This light never threatened me
It only wanted to lead
Show me a better life
So that I may flourish too.
I cling onto the metal bars
Tugging with all my might
But no matter how hard I try
The steel bars remain standing strong
It's not until I realize the little light was not a light
But something so much more
That blinding brightness
Can shine in me
And shine
I will try.
This explosion of white light inside
Puts a hand on my shoulder
Offering me the strength
The strength to break through my cage.
The room around me crumbles
Nothing more than specks of dust
The warm summer air engulfs me
The sweet smell of life surrounding
I can finally be at rest
Living with the little light inside me
Thriving and learning how to fly
But that paradise swiftly falls away
As the hands of darkness grasp my legs
And pull me back away
I dig at the luscious green grass, the dirt
Struggling to maintain my freedom
The little light grabs my wrists to help
To save me
But two strong forces pulling opposite ways
End up tearing me apart
The room full of darkness rebuilding itself
Blood splattering on the walls and floor as I'm torn
All the light I feared in the beginning
Fades away as my eyes grow heavy
And darkness consumes my being.
There is nothing now.
Those curtains left shut once again.
…
I am in a room
There is no light
Only darkness
What is in ー the room ー is unknown
All that is known
Is that it's all I remember.
“Speak only when spoken to. Do what you're told to do. Feel what you're told to feel. Don't fight back, don't resist. Be the perfect test subject you are.”
Basic Info
Birth Name
Alexander Sebastian Green
Current Name
Jay Star
First Name
Jay
Meaning
Victory, a bird, healer
Significance
When he met Jacob, Jacob introduced himself then asked for Jays name. Jay wasn't used to talking much at the time, so he started to repeat Jacob's name very slowly, and Jacob cut him off halfway. He's been Jay ever since
Last Name
Star
Significance
In trying to come up with a last name, Jay tried to make it something that sounded cool and related to him. He's an outdoors type of guy, so one night, staring up at the stars, he decided he wanted Star to be his last name. Flashy last name, I know. He was a kid-
Nicknames
Dolphin
Reason
He sounds like a dolphin when he laughs. He has a very high-pitched laugh
Jay Bird
Reason
This is just a nickname his ex used to call him. There was no real reason behind it
Biological Gender
Male
Preferred Gender
Male
Pronouns
He / him / his
Sexual Orientation
Asexual
Romantic Orientation
Pan-romantic
Age
20 - 24 depending on the rp
Birthday
Jay does not know. I do, but he doesn't know, so there's no reason to state it
Zodiac Sign
Same answer as before
Occupation
Actor or None
Where they live
Prismoria
Languages
English
“He was my sunshine. There's no sunshine anymore. Only... Darkness. Endless darkness.”
Health and Abilities
Physical Illnesses
... That is unknown
Mental Illnesses
This is unknown as well
Triggers
Basically everything
Mutation / Power
He does not have a mutation that gives him a power, his powers come from his necklace. And he can use all types of powers
How long have they had it
Since he was 3
What are the limitations (If it's a power)
He can't use it for too long, otherwise the pendant starts to burn him and make him relive trauma in his head. He hates using magic for this reason
“Dad didn't do anything. Oh, it was his body, but it wasn't him.”
Appearance
Overall Description
Jay generally looks like he came straight out of a bush. His dandelion blond, curly hair has leaves and twigs tangled in the curls. His clothes are worn and torn in a few places. He wears a sweatshirt and some baggy pants; he's not one to show much skin. It's not that he looks dirty or anything, but it doesn't look like he actually bought any of those clothes. They barely fit him.
Height
6'8"
203.2 cm
Weight
190 lbs.
86.2 kg
Skin color
Pale ivory
Hair color
Yellow blonde
Hair texture
Soft like a kittens fur
Hair style
Curly and unbrushed
Eye color(s)
Electric blue
Piercings
None
Scars
Many. Most of them are on his back. I can't describe them without revealing some of his backstory though
Tattoos
None
Birthmark
None
Freckles
No
Accent / Voice
Very low-pitched and deep, except for when he laughs. When he laughs, his voice goes up like, ten full octaves in pitch
Other
He is extremely warm. Like, he's practically a personal heater. So, he gives the best hugs, because he's just so warm.
“Trees are better. Beds steal innocence.”
Personality
Closest Stereotype
Tsundere
Overall Description
Jay is very closed off and distant at first, but it's just because he's scared. He believes that if he let's people in, they will end up getting hurt because that's what happened to someone who used to be his boyfriend. He doesn't really understand social interactions nor can he read people at all, so he can only pick up on things like "hm, they seem sad" if it's obvious and in his face. Once he opens up to someone, he is like a giant teddy bear. He will protect them at all costs and all he'll want to do is cuddle with them. Even if they're just a friend. He doesn't see cuddles as a romantic thing.
Likes
Trees and nature. He lives in a tree. He loves being able to be in the freedom of the outdoors, where he can be sure that he will not be trapped because there will always be somewhere he can run.
Physical affection of any kind. I often joke that he is hug-deprived because he is. Jacob showed him what physical affection was when he was about 14. He never knew what it was like before that. And ever since, he became very affectionate towards anyone close to him. It's how he demonstrates his appreciation. It's not a romantic thing (though it can be)
Kittens. He just finds them really cute :3
Dislikes
Buildings without many windows and doors. This goes back to the outdoors thing, he doesn't like feeling trapped. If there aren't a lot of windows and doors, there aren't a lot of escape routes and he starts to feel trapped and helpless
People who interrupt him. Sometimes it takes a little while for him to be able to respond, social interactions are hard for him. It's even harder when he's not given enough time to properly comprehend what was said and respond to the best of his abilities
Anything related to magic and anything related to killing. Both of those remind him of the lab and make him paranoid or guilty. It's difficult for him to discuss it.
Traits
Affectionate and warm-hearted. He may not be able to use his words to explain himself very well, but he will always be able to use affection to demonstrate how much he cares about someone. And he will do anything to help that person be happy and content.
Self-sacrificing. That is a positive thing, but he can be a bit too self-sacrifing to the point where it's self-destructive
Strange. He is very strange. Sometimes he will speak in riddles. He doesn't seem to have human needs. He refuses to even touch a bed. The man is very strange and unusual.
He is a man of extremes. He sees things as black and white. You're either good or bad, no in between. He either doesn't trust you at all, or trusts you with all his heart. His voice is super deep, his laugh is super high pitched. Everything about him is either 100% or 0%
Naïve. He was locked up for three fourths of his life almost, he doesn't understand a lot of things, so a lot of things are new to him.
Hobbies
Drawing
Greatest joy in life
Cuddles. It always makes him happy
Fears
Letting someone in. He's terrified that if he let's someone get close to him again, they'll end up dying like his boyfriend. He doesn't know if he'd even be able to handle that
Being happy. If he starts being happy again, it'll be harder to survive in the lab. If he doesn't feel anything, he has nothing to lose. But if he has happiness and hope, he has everything to lose.
Losing control to the pendant. His necklace is always trying to force him to do what it wants, and sometimes it's even able to take full control over him for a short period of time. He's scared that one day it will have full control
Love Language(s)
Physical Touch: People who communicate their appreciation through this language, when they consent to it, feel appreciated when they are hugged, kissed, or cuddled. They value the feeling of warmth and comfort that comes with physical touch.
Acts of Service: This love language is for people who believe that actions speak louder than words. Unlike those who prefer to hear how much they're cared for, people on this list like to be shown how they're appreciated. Doing the smaller and bigger chores to make their lives easier or more comfortable is highly cherished by these people.
Biggest Regret
Stabbing his boyfriend
Biggest Accomplishment
Learning to love
Darkest Secret
His entire backstory
“I will have to disappear again, soon.”
Random Opinions (This is a new section, I'm experimenting, sue me)
Physcial contact
Jay is touch-starved. Very touch-starved. He is not open to physical contact with strangers; he won't even shake someone's hand for a "nice to meet you" interaction. Once he trusts someone, then he's very affectionate. Basically inseparable. He always feels the need to hold something, anything. Normally, that is his sketchbook. But if someone he cares about is around, it becomes them. At all times.
However, he cares a lot about consent. More than a normal person. If someone touches him without consent, even just a tap on the shoulder, he if going to react defensively and disarm them. It's best not to catch him off guard.
Trust
Hard to win, hard to lose. It takes a while for real trust to be built with Jay, before he finally believes that someone is truely not a threat in the least. And yes, that is sort of how he sees trust; if he needs to be ready to defend himself or not around someone. Trust is not a right, it is a privilege built on truth and reliability.
Yes, some things may sway him more than others. Generally, actions speak louder than words. Same goes for him. He may say he's not a nice person and that he shouldn't be trusted, but then he goes and offers a stranger shelter and food if it's unfeasible to just get them to go back home.
Now, losing trust - It does really depend on what someone does. Jay can excuse a lot. If you have his trust, you've already proven yourself to be a good person. It will take a lot of mistakes before Jay starts to lose faith in someone. A lot of small mistakes, that is. If someone were to kill someone after he starts to trust them, that's a big no. Not respecting his boundaries or ignoring consent; big no. If he has lost faith in someone, it will take significantly more than it did in the first place to win it back.
Truth
Jay never lies. If he doesn't want someone to know something, he doesn't lie, he simply doesn't answer. Because no words are better than lying. Sometimes he speaks strangely; he's just wording everything he says so that there is never any falseity to it. If someone lies to him, he will most likely be able to identify it (if he has the pendant on), and depending on the lie, call them out on it. Immediately
Flaws in others
Not really a concern. His past is riddled with the worst things humanity has to bring, he has seen a lot. As long as someone is not actively commiting war crimes, they're good. if they have murder in their past, that's fine; it's the past. The present self is what matters.
Core Beliefs
In a character arc, these will most likely change from being negative to positive. These are base-Jay beliefs
"My purpose is to serve and to suffer so others don't have to." - This is not something he was told, not some line that he repeats because he was told to. This is just what 52he sees the world as. He must keep going back to his place of trauma so nobody else has to take his place.
"I am not just powerless, but useless without the pendant." - These are super sad, I know 😭 He does fully believe that he is useless if he doesn't have that parasite commanding his every move. It may be nice to have a few minutes where he's allowed to be himself, but during that time, he knows that he's vulnerable, stupid, slow, and overall a worse version of himself. At least, that's what he believes
Fear. In most situations, his first emotional response is fear.
“I am not cute, I am as manly as you can get!”
Self-Perception
How they feel about themselves
Indifferent. Jacob showed him that there are some good things about himself, but he knows that there are some really bad things about himself. If he's in a good mood, he's indifferent about himself. If he's in a bad mood, he thinks he's a monster.
How they would describe themselves
Murderer
What they think is their best trait
His loyalty
What they think is their worst trait
His loyalty, it's a double-edged sword
How they think other perceive them
Tough guy
What they would like to change about themselves
Get rid of the pendant
“It's not that I hate myself, I don't. I just know what I am and what I have to do. For everyone else's sake.”
Jay is an rp-killer. He is so closed off and distant at the start that people often get stuck and can't make any progress with him. He acts like a brick wall sometimes, and it makes the rp hit a brick wall. If your character isn't persistent enough, gives up easily, or gets scared off easily, it's not going to work out with Jay. You will hit a brick wall. Jay is my hardest character to start an rp with.
If you do manage to get past the beginning stages with him, the rp can be very interesting. Some of my best rps started with him.
What is the pendant?
How was it created?
One day, Jay saw a blue tiger when he was only 3, and he decided to follow it into the woods. He was a toddler and didn't realize how dangerous that was. The tiger led him to a portal, and Jay tried to go through it. Nothing happened. So he tried again. And again, and again.
Soon enough, it was too much and the portal suddenly flew up into the air, spinning rapidly. It exploded into a bunch of pieces, almost crushing Jay as the piece fell back to the ground but the tiger pushed him out of the way. Not wanting to lose it forever, the tiger pushed the pieces together and pulled off some magic that condensed all the broken pieces into a small crystal on a coppery chain. Then it gave the necklace to Jay for safe-keeping.
Why was it there?
That tiger from before came from another dimension, a dimension full of prophets and shapeshifters. She was only a kid, and she messed with the timeline. That was a huge crime, and the higher ups sentenced her to be banished to a different dimension. That's where the portal came from. But it was a one way portal, so she couldn't go back because she was banned. So going through it did nothing. She thought maybe another creature could go through and convince the higher ups to give her another chance, that's why she got Jay. She just wanted to go back home and see her family.
What does it do?
Well, it gave Jay powers. He was able to use the magic that was held within the crystal and harness its energy.
What went wrong?
One day, the scientists went too far. In trying to find out how to make magic, they pushed Jay and the pendant too far. The pendant turned from it's red color to a golden-ish glow, which seeped into his heart, infecting it. The heart infected his blood, which then went throughout his entire body. Once it got to his brain, the pendant was able to talk to Jay. It gained a mind of its own. Because of the awful situation Jay was in, the pendant learned to be scared of everyone and to view everyone and everything as a threat. So, it always wants Jay to kill and eliminate all threats. It is still just a rock, it has no empathy or emotions.
Jay however does not want to kill people, he doesn't like listening to the pendant. So the pendant has to use other methods to make him do what it tells him. It yells at him, burns him, makes him relive memories he wants to forget over and over until he gives in. It uses him like he's nothing but a vessel.
What do the colors mean?
Blue - It's in its normal state and isn't using magic.
Red - It's overheated. Either it's using too much energy or it's mad at Jay and thus overheats, burning him.
Gold - Jay has pushed it past the danger phase and it is now trying to take total control over him. Jay's eyes will turn red at this point too, but they go back to normal after he sleeps.
What powers can he use?
All.
Isn't that OP?
No, because he can only use magic for a very short amount of time, and the harder the magic, the more it takes out of him. The pendant overheats very fast, so he doesn't like using magic. It also gives the pendant more control over him.
How does the particle affect him?
It doesn't. The pendant is able to maintain his heath and sanity. It doesn't let the particle enter his body because that threatens to take away some of the power it holds over him.
How much of Jay's health does it regulate? And why?
If Jay dies, it dies, so it will not let Jay die. He doesn't need to eat, he doesn't need to sleep, he can be stabbed, he can be shot, he can jump off a building, he will not die. The pendant heals him just enough to stay alive. Though, it will not let any wound heal, it keeps those from getting better. Then when it needs them, it can open up all those wounds to hurt Jay and make him listen. It has all the power over Jay. If he didn't have the pendant, he would be dead.
